Last night I went to bed at 10:30pm. I fell asleep almost immediately when I hit the bed but baby woke up around 1:15am. Tried to go back to sleep but wasn’t able to. Called husband who was downstairs watching TV and trying to unwind after his work at the restaurant. He tried to help me fall back to sleep through coaching and giving me a back rub but it didn’t work. He offered to give me one of his sleeping pills and said I wouldn’t be breastfeeding anyway so it should be fine. But I didn’t want to take it because baby really wants to breastfeed and I’m afraid I might not be able to wake up when she needs me.
Husband was also having nightmares, he was kicking and punching, which made it worse. I decided to move to baby’s bedroom and try to sleep there. I was very comfortable and all was set for me to fall asleep but I still couldn’t. By 5am I gave up and just thought about the things to do the next day. 😦
1. Baby woke up
2. Husband not in bed
3. Thoughts on my friends who are having a fight
4. Tasks I needed to do for work
Can you suggest how you are able to go back to sleep after waking up to take care of your baby?
1. I want to be a more loving wife. Sometimes when I’m very tired, I get upset and I take it out on my husband. 😦 I need to keep in mind that aside from being a mother and a career woman, I am also a wife and I want to be good at being a wife too.
2. I want to learn how to be a great mom to Myka, and that includes knowing how to give tough love because I don’t want her to be spoiled rotten. And I could be a pushover so I don’t want her to learn to manipulate me.
3. I want to take care of my body, my soul, my well-being. I haven’t been taking care of myself. I have gained weight, I haven’t been feeding my soul, and I feel like I don’t have a social life anymore. That needs to change. How should I start fixing it? Start planning meals, work out, and do this nightly reflections.
4. I want to continue to be awesome at doing my job. It’s been very, very hard to even make 8 hours every day. What with taking care of Myka and driving to and from work plus taking care of a house.
5. I want to keep my connections with my family and friends
I had a very restful night because my baby slept from 9pm to 12mn (I slept from 10:30 to 4am. Yay!) and D arrived and put her back to sleep. So I just went back to sleep until 4am when she woke up again. I was able to go back to sleep from 5am to 7am when MJ barked because the baby sitter arrived. I forgot to tell her that I took the day off to “relax” on my birthday.
I was delighted to see my husband’s little surprise for me downstairs.
I did the laundry, took care of Myka in the morning and had a chat with Bernie, who brought me a pot of beautiful yellow tulips.
D took me to the semi-empty parking lot at Cabela’s to let me drive the truck. It was very different from driving the car.
After that we went to Chili’s to have a very early dinner and some alone time. We often joke that we’re very old people, eating dinner at 4pm! 😀
I still haven’t responded to messages on Facebook, I just couldn’t find time. But it’s ok, I’m sure people will understand.
I wanted to do my yearly reflections and vision board but I am too busy today. Maybe I can do it for 15 minutes a day. One of the things I want to do regularly from now on is to do a max of 30-min blog/reflection.
I’m going back to work next Tuesday, Jan 24 and I’m really anxious about it. For one, I need to pass my driver’s test on Monday. Then I need to prepare everything for Myka and my mom before I leave the house.
It’s also quite busy in my project because we are nearing our delivery date so everyone is expected to do overtime. Plus I got promoted so I will be in my new role. It’s exciting but at the same time, I feel so pressured and a bit scared that I might not meet expectations.
I am also thinking about my mom’s travel back home. I feel sad that she didn’t get to do much during her vacation. We mostly spent time inside the house. I feel like we should have done more and went out more. It’s just really hard with Myka because she would cry in the car.
I know I just need to take this one day at a time. I can do this.
I came across an article on Hotel 101 – a condotel concept that is very similar to what I want to do with my condo. I wish I bought a unit here instead of Avida Centerra.
I’m still engrossed with my research on my condotel business venture. Based on my computations, I will get even only after 15 years (assuming that I only get 10 nights of occupancy in a month) – that is, if I don’t raise the monthly rent. Fifteen years is an incredibly long time for me to recover my costs.
Yay! My mom got her tourist visa! She’s set to visit us here next year, January 15, 2017. I’m excited and at the same time worried. It will be her very first time to travel alone. And she’s not very good with texting and updating me whenever she travels. It’s always my sister or father – whoever she’s traveling with who updates me wherever she is. Well, I know everything will be fine. And I really hope she’ll enjoy her time with us here. She truly deserves this vacation. 🙂
My parents are on their way to Davao right now. Their flight to Manila is at 10:00PM. I’m kinda worried that they might not know their way or they might get lost. It’s their first time to go around Manila on their own. I have booked a hotel for them already, I am just worried that taxi drivers might trick them – and know that they don’t have any idea how to go from one place to another.
My mom will be going to the US Embassy at Manila for her tourist visa interview. I hope she gets it so that she can travel to US next year. I have planned for her to travel on January 15, 2017 so that she can help me look after my baby when I start going back to work. It is also my gift to her for her retirement. She has worked so hard so that we can finish college so I want to reward her for that.
Although I feel bad for my Papa, I just can’t afford to have both of them travel next year. And besides, I’m scared my father won’t be able to endure the 22-hour flight.
I hope and pray that the Consul gives my Mama a tourist visa…