I kiss my past goodbye

Dear God,

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I know that you always want the best for me. Although you have shown me how great your love is, still I have chosen to hurt and disobey you many times. I traded Your perfect, unchanging love for fleeting moments of worldly comfort and desire. Father, thank you for giving me endless chances to start anew, for your infinite stream of forgiveness, for your blood that washed away my sins and made me pure again. Thank you for giving me hope, and a promise of a blessed future. I pray that you give me strength to turn away from the temptations of this world. May I give glory to you as I live out my life’s purpose. May you be the center of my life. I embrace tomorrow with you and kiss my past goodbye.

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You’re the center of the universe Everything was made in You Jesus Breath of every living thing Everyone was made for You

:Pre-Chorus: You hold everything together You hold everything together

:chorus: Christ be the center of our lives Be the place we fix our eyes Be the center of our lives

We lift our eyes to heaven We wrap our lives around your life We lift our eyes to heaven, to You

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Jewels Challenge by Rissa: Grace to be born visit

One of the assignments given by Ms Rissa on our session 1 of JEWELS is to visit Grace to be born (aside from reading 3 chapters of the Bible everyday and tithing).

That’s why last Sunday, I and my sisters decided to have our CG at Grace to be Born. The babies were sooo cute and adorable.. 🙂

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We really had a great time with the babies. I was especially attached to Nayumi. I even put her to sleep (bottom right at above pic).. It was hard for us to leave them crying and longing for our touch and affection. 😦 Bawal ma attach – warned our CG head, Camille.grace_to_be+bornWe became instant moms to the babies. I really love babies and kids so obviously, I had a super great time with them. I hope and pray that they find homes soon… If you are a couple, maybe you can adopt one of the kids and give them a bright future. God bless! 🙂

Holy Thursday: Interactive 14 Stations of the Cross @Bonifacio High Street

What a beautiful and meaningful way to spend Holy Thursday: 14 Stations of the Cross

1. The Garden: Jesus in the Garden of Gethsemane
1. The Garden: Jesus in the Garden of Gethsemane

Act: We had to look at ourselves in the mirror and think about the one fear that tends to take a hold of us, or the one thing that is a recurring source of anxiety, or something that we are facing at the moment.

2: The Betrayal: Jesus is Betrayed by Judas
2: The Betrayal: Jesus is Betrayed by Judas

Act: Pick a red cloth (symbolizing sin) and take it with you to the succeeding stations.

Act: Pick a red cloth (symbolizes sin) and take it with you.
Act: Pick a red cloth (symbolizes sin) and take it with you.
3: The Trial: Jesus Before the Sanhedrin
3: The Trial: Jesus Before the Sanhedrin
Sample Ballot: Choose the characteristics you want to have - and characteristics you want your leaders to possess
Sample Ballot: Choose the characteristics you want to have – and characteristics you want your leaders to possess

Characteristics I want to have: 1. Courage 2. Authority 3. Integrity 4. Generosity
Characteristics I want my Leaders to Possess: 1. Integrity 2. Authority 3. Generosity 4. Courage
This coming elections, I hope people will vote WISELY.

4. The Verdict: Jesus is Judged by Pilate
4. The Verdict: Jesus is Judged by Pilate
4 Act: Sponsor a Child
4 Act: Sponsor a Child
Donating for the Children's Future
Donating for the Children’s Future
5. The Whip: Jesus is Scourged
5. The Whip: Jesus is Scourged
Feeling Jesus's wounds
Feeling Jesus’s wounds
6. The Curse: Jesus is Crowned with Thorns
6. The Curse: Jesus is Crowned with Thorns
Let's take care of our environment. Commit to plant more trees
Let’s take care of our environment. Commit to plant more trees
7. The Cross: Jesus Carries His Cross
7. The Cross: Jesus Carries His Cross
Taking Up My Cross
Taking Up My Cross
Experiencing the Cross
Experiencing the Cross
8. The Two Simons: Simon Peter (who denied Jesus) and Simon of Cyrene (the foreigner who helped Jesus carry his cross)
8. The Two Simons: Simon Peter (who denied Jesus) and Simon of Cyrene (the foreigner who helped Jesus carry his cross)

Act: Read someone else’s prayer and write your prayer on paper.
I was really touched when I read this prayer – it was probably written by someone very young. Such an unselfish act – praying for the beggars. 🙂

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9. The Crucifixion: Jesus is Crucified
9. The Crucifixion: Jesus is Crucified
Nailing Sin on the Cross
Nailing Sin on the Cross
People's Sins Have made the Cross Heavier
People’s Sins Have made the Cross Heavier
10. The Mother: Jesus Entrusts His Mother to John
10. The Mother: Jesus Entrusts His Mother to John

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11. The Promise: Jesus Promises Paradise to the Repentant Thief
11. The Promise: Jesus Promises Paradise to the Repentant Thief

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12. The Darkness: Jesus Dies
12. The Darkness: Jesus Dies

Act: We entered the dark tent to commemorate the darkness that fell on the Earth when Jesus died.

Jesus Dies
Jesus Dies
13. The Cloth: Jesus Rises
13. The Cloth: Jesus Rises

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14. The Invitation: Remembering Jesus
14. The Invitation: Remembering Jesus Partaking in the Lord's Supper completetaguig sponsors
Agaw Eksena ang very cute but very huge dog!
Agaw Eksena ang very cute but very huge dog!

Special Thanks to James for accompanying me at Bonifacio High Street and being my model for this post. 🙂

I Love Life!

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I love life retreat participants.
Photo Credits: JPaul Hernandez

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I’ve just had one of the most awesome weekends of my life. I attended the Love Life retreat conducted by the Feast Ortigas for the Singles community at CCT Tagaytay. I didn’t only have an intimate personal encounter with the Lord, I also gained a number of new friends both from the participants and the servants.

We left Manila at 7am yesterday and arrived at Tagaytay at around9am. We were all delighted to see the venue and excited to check out our rooms. And yes, the retreat fee of 1,800 was really worth it!

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Bro Jan Silas of Makati Feast gave the first talk on “Loving yourself”.  His talk really struck  me because I know that I have not been loving myself enough. I am incapable of loving others because I could not love myself the way God loved me. There are so many times when I could not accept myself for my flaws, shortcomings and failures. I have been very hard on myself. Bro Jan reminded us that God did not make junk. As the song goes, God says, “Child you are.. .more precious than silver. Child you are… more costly than gold. Child you are…more beautiful than diamonds.”

There is also a beautiful article snippet from Kerygma that I want to share with you:

 Those chains that have bound you for so long – you don’t have to settle for those anymore. Jesus has resurrection power to set you free! If you’ll commit yourself to resurrection living, you can confront those monsters from your past that have haunted you and defined you for way too long. You can face those fears, move beyond that bitterness, and throw yourself into doing some things that will last forever!

Tell Jesus that you’re tired of business as usual – that you’ve been settling for a life that’s too small, that’s only as big as you can make it. Sell out to His plans, His power. We stand by Jesus at the empty tomb that He blew away and hear Him say, “Break free from the bondage called ordinary living! Put no limits to the miracles of God in your life and ministry! Attempt big things for God. Dream big dreams. And give nothing less than your all. You’ve got the power – the extraordinary life! This is your calling!

I was really blessed by the talk by Bro Jan and by the sharing of Sister Arci. I wouldn’t spill the rest of the talks in the retreat for the benefit of those who will be joining the May session but I just want to share that the poignant message that I received from God in the retreat is to see myself that way He sees me, to love myself, and forgive myself…because He doesn’t want to allow sin to keep me away from Him. He wants me to be faithful to our covenant because He will never break His promises. 🙂

Friend, you can do nothing about your past, but you can do something about your future – Bro Vic

Here are some of our pics during the retreat. I’m really happy to have made new friends. I have isolated myself ever since I transferred to Manila and often I felt “friendless” because I left my friends in Mindanao. But I know I should also make new ones to fill up my love tank as I continue to cherish and nourish my sweet old friendships. 🙂

Our room at CCT Tagaytay :)
Our room at CCT Tagaytay 🙂

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Aia.. can you be my prayer partner? 🙂
My roommates and new found friends Bambi, Aia, Kaye, and May
My pretty roommates and new found friends Bambi, Aia, Kaye, and May
Mahangin at super ginaw! :)
Mahangin at super ginaw! 🙂

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Celebrate Love!

How was your February 14?

Yesterday, it was Valentines Day for some, but just a plain Thursday for many. During our meeting at The Gathering, we were asked how we spent our Feb 14 day/night. 75% of the group shared that they spent it with their girlfriend/boyfriend/wife/husband/partner – eating out, praying together, watching movies, or just hanging out together. 25% of the group (including me) shared that it was just an ordinary Thursday (hehe..obviously this answer came from the singles and unattached).

So what exactly is Valentines Day?

I heard someone say that it was a Singles’ Awareness Day. Haha. Others say it’s a day for the lovers. Well, it really just depends on how you see it on your perspective. Although I am not really one of the fans of Valentines Day, I still like the idea of having one day in the calendar for love. However people seem to have forgotten that there are 3 types of love – eros, philial, and agape. Most people think that Valentines Day is only for the lovers (those that fall under eros). That’s why the day is often dreaded by the singles and the brokenhearted.

I could have chosen to feel lonely and depressed because I don’t have a special person in my life right now or because the day just reminds me of broken relationships but I chose to celebrate love on this day! Love for my friends and family, and love for God. I sent texts to my loved ones to let them know that I love them. Although this should be done not only in Valentines Day but because of our busy lives, sometimes we tend to forget this very simple thing. It’s nice that Valentines Day reminds us to be more loving! 🙂

I also celebrated love with God through prayer. It’s so timely because the day before Valentines Day was Ash Wednesday. I am reminded of God’s great love for me and that I should repent for my sins. Even if I’m already active in serving Him through The Feast, I admit that I am still sinful. And there are times when I feel very ashamed of myself, which is exactly what sin does in our life – damage our relationship with God. But I know we should not feel condemned because God still loves us.

So you see, there are endless reasons to celebrate love. So be joyful and be generous of your love. Love is something that is meant to be given away…and it will also come back to you.. 🙂

Just a short message to the single ladies like me (especially to my newfound friend, Kat):
I hope that you feel better and blessed byreading this (and attending The Feast). I know it’s really hard and painful to undergo a heartbreak. It may take time to heal and let go. But I know that this is also the best time for you to get to know yourself more…and more importantly, to know God more. Surround yourself with friends and family…people who really love you for who you are. We may not be able to comprehend it yet, but this heartbreak will make you stronger, and more compassionate. Being single doesn’t equate to being unhappy. Enjoy yourself. Have fun! The Lord says, “Be still, and know that I am God.” 🙂

God bless you sis! Let’s have fun at the Love Life Retreat! See you tomorrow! You inspired me to write this post. Don’t be depressed na… 🙂

Why Should I Tithe: My Journey Towards Abundance

Before I share to you the things I’ve learned about tithing, let me first give you a definition of tithe:

Tithe – One tenth of annual produce or earnings, formerly taken as a tax for the support of the church and clergy.

I was born and raised as a Roman Catholic. And through all those years of going to mass, I have seen people put into the offertory baskets only their loose change (in Bisaya, “sinsilyo”, in Tagalog, “barya”). I even recall my mother asking us if we have some coins so we could offer it. Back then, I thought that it was normal, I thought that was expected from us parishioners to give coins. Sometimes during special occasions like Christmas, I’d see more people dropping in 10-peso or 20-peso bills. The clink clank of the coins in those church baskets were less noisy during those special times.

When I started “exploring God” by attending different churches, I noticed that other sects gave more during their offerings. They placed their money inside envelopes and gave with a smile. I was amazed and at the same time, jealous for my church. Because without batting an eyelash, I placed a 500-peso bill in the envelope that they handed to me. And then I became a member of CFC-Singles for Christ community. There we were taught to give more back to the Lord. And I learned more about what tithing really is. And I took baby steps.

They said tithing was about giving 10% of your income back to the Lord. And I remembered, back then, I was wondering if I should base it on my gross or my net income. But that was just a passing thought because I later on bargained to God if it’s alright if I just made sure that I won’t be giving coins during mass because I am sending my brothers to college. I considered it as a way of giving back to the Lord already and I was afraid that I won’t have enough left. So I said I would give only bills during Offertory time.

During that time, there were no more 10-peso bills! Our bills start with 20 already. To give you a little background, I was still working as a university instructor and I was earning about P18,000 per month. So if I followed the 10% rule in the Old Testament, I was supposed to give about 1,800 per month. But I just gave a maximum of 100 pesos each time I go to mass. AND, I was already very proud of myself then. Because my seatmates in church would only give their “barya” or coins – others won’t even give if they can’t find coins in their wallets or pockets.

When I started going to The Feast, I learned sooo much more about tithing. Just this morning, I attended the Call Center Feast in New Horizon Hotel here at Mandaluyong – just about 300 steps away from where I live. Can I invite you? 🙂 CCFM conducts feasts at this venue at 8 30 in the morning every other Saturday. So for those who are interested to join us, you are most welcome… see you on Feb 9! 🙂

Here are some of the things that I learned today:

– You have to give until it hurts. Have you experienced that sometimes when we give..it hurts? I’d share to you my story in a little while
– One sister shared how she was able to “unlock” God’s overflowing abundance when she started giving back to God. She shared how she and her husband have agreed and committed to giving 10% (or even more) of their income to God’s temple. She has an auto-debit system wherein the bank automatically deducts a certain portion of her income and puts it in God’s trust fund. She confessed that at first she and her husband were a little “afraid” because they had mortgages to pay, kids to send to school, and all other expenses. But you have to do it afraid. Because our GOD CANNOT BE OUTDONE in his generosity. Blessings poured in, and even overflowed…because God loves us so much.
– God doesn’t really need your money, He needs your faith! Many skeptics may ask, why should God have to obligate me to give back to Him if He is the owner of the universe? Brothers and sisters, God wants your faith…and He wants you to be His partner in building His kingdom here on Earth. He also wants you to create more space so that He can replace that space with more blessings that overflows! 🙂

5Hs of Tithing:
1. Habit – You have to do it regularly. What is the difference between giving and tithing? Giving is occasional while tithing is regular.
2. Happy – Giving back to God actually feels good and it will make you happy!
3. Holy – It makes your money holy. Tithing teaches us generosity, and generosity is the opposite of greed. The only way to liberate ourselves from the greed of money is to give it back to the storehouse of God.
4. Hunger – Hunger is good! Don’t you agree? We are talking about a different hunger here. You are hungry to help in God’s ministry, to expand, and to help more people. So you will do better in your jobs or businesses because you have a “good hunger” – to serve and to give more.
5. Harvest – Tithing teaches us the abundance mindset. We believe that there is an abundance of God’s blessings just waiting for us to harvest them.

So about the 2 common questions:
1. Can I just give my money to my poor relatives and will it be considered tithing? Giving to our relatives is good, but the Bible tells us to bring the full amount of our tithes to the temple
2. Should I base it on my gross or net income? How much do you want to be blessed – based on your gross or your net income? You decide. 🙂

How the concept of tithing has changed my life:

As I said, I took more bold steps toward tithing when I started attending The Feast. I started putting in 200.. 300.. 400.. and more inside the envelope. It started last year. And I told God that I would increase and hopefully reach 10% when my brothers would have their own stable jobs. You see, I am paying a big amount of money for my condo rent and my insurances. Plus, I sent most of my money to my brothers – one was still studying nursing at that time, and the other had a family to support (including my pretty niece Nycah). So when I put those bills in the envelope, there was some kind of pain. But when I put that envelope into the basket, I feel relieved. Because I knew that I no longer have to worry about my family. I know that God will take care of them. And guess what?!

God truly, could not be outdone in His generosity. I got promoted. My brother passed the Nursing board exam and just this month, he got into a Nursing job in the province. My other brother, Jong, was accepted as a fireman in the government – he now has a stable and good paying job! I am now starting to pay for my own condo. And I got another life insurance from Sunlife. My stocks in Citiseconline are doing good, too! God is really a wonderful, loving God! He is a God of abundance. Praise God!

Outreach activity for He cares foundation

I am really amazed with how my friends and officemates responded to our call for donations and volunteers for our outreach activity at He Cares Foundation.  It started with the benefit concert that Brian and i watched. We were deeply moved by how other people have worked so hard for the sake of these kids that they dont even know. We then realized that we can also do our share in making a difference in these children’s lives.

Since this is one of the ministries of Bro Bo Sanchez, we really wanted to do something to help. Brian Rommel and I conceptualized this Christmas outreach activity. We sent emails to our friends and previous projectmates. We were surprised because a lot of them really responded and were very generous in sharing their time, talent and treasure.

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We went to divisoria and bought toys and school supplies. Although  we were stressed with the gitgitan and pushing at divi, we were still very happy with all the things that we were able to buy for the kids.

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Last night we bought the chocolates, candies, and other food for the party. We also bought items for their hygiene kit such as toothbrush,  toothpaste and bath soap.

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I’m so excited for this Sunday!  May God bless the careers,  business, and families of these generous individuals..

Anawim: God’s poor

I just came home from our visit to the lolos and lolas in Anawim. Our ministry, the Ushers of Ortigas Feast decided that our bonding session for this quarter would be an outreach to our elderly in Anawim. Although the schedule was very difficult for me – I’d only have 4 hours of sleep from my midshift. We had to assemble at Valle Verde Country Club at 7am and I came home from work at almost 2 in the morning.

But I didn’t mind. I was eager to be part of the pilgrimage to Anawim. This week, almost every night, I dreamt of my own grandparents. As if they’re telling me that I should also visit them when I go home to Mangagoy. Every time I wake up, I’d remember them in my dream but I could not remember what they said. I miss them so much.

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As a child, I grew up in the love, care, and supervision of my lolos and lolas in both sides. And having been a lolo/lola’s girl has had a big impact and influence in my life. I give credit to them for having raised me as a loving individual. I am what I am today because I grew up in the unconditional love and kindness of my own grandparents. That’s why I thought that visiting the lolos and lolas in Anawim would make me experience that warmth again.

And I was not mistaken. When I saw them smiling and very much eager to meet us and spend time with us, my heart fluttered. Their smiles are priceless. Lola Grace even said that they are always very happy every time people would visit them because most of them are not allowed to go out of their shelter anymore because that would be too risky for them.

“Bumabata kami pag dinadalaw nyo kami rito. Bumalik kayo dito, anak,” was Lola Grace’s parting words. We enjoyed listening to their songs and watching them dance. At the same time, they were also entertained by our group member’s performances. It was a great and blessed day indeed, when we all experienced God’s wonderful love.

According to the head servant of Anawim, every time people go there, not only the elderly are happy, but they themselves will be happy because if the lolos and lolas are happy, they are much easier to please and take care of. Little did he know that we, the visitors are doubly happy because we made a difference in the day of the elders – we made them smile. And they made us smile too.

In my case, they also made me cry. Haha. Especially when it was time to say goodbye. I wasn’t able to control it, my tears just flowed from my eyes because I remember saying goodbye to my own grandparents when it was time for me to leave again. It always tore my heart to leave and see the longing in their eyes. Not knowing when, and if, I’ll see them again when I go home. Being far away from home since I was thirteen, saying goodbye after a break from school or work was always a pain.

But I left the shelter with joy in my heart, knowing that they are in good hands.

I thank God for blessing the earth with people like Bro. Bo and the benefactors, donors, servants, and Feast members who are willing to share their time, talent, and treasure to the abandoned elderly – the poorest of the poor.

Note: Anawim was founded by Bo Sanchez, a Catholic preacher. He was building huts that will serve as a retreat house when, one day, a wounded old man came. Bro. Bo’s heart was deeply touched that’s why he decided to build a shelter for the elderly. The place is really beautiful and well-maintained. That people would want to stay there when they get old. But Bro. Bo emphasized that one should strive, instead, to be donors for the poor elderly instead of being the ones who would need assistance.

So friend, while you are young, plan for your retirement and have an abundant life. So that one day, you can be a channel of blessing to others and help in God’s ministry. 🙂

I’m serving at The Feast Ortigas! :)

Meet my Feast Ortigas – Ushers family, with Sister Yang (the 5th from the left) as our beautiful and energetic leader. I love serving the Lord through the different ministries of The Feast and I hope more people would come to attend it and be blessed.

Meet Bro. Reggie and his wife. They have contacted me and asked me to join the Awesome Kids ministry so I can teach and be with the beautiful and godly children of The Feast.

I’ll be serving together with Teachers Joy and Henrick in the Kids’ ministry.